Looking Back


Oh what a trip!

The last time I was home I dug through boxes of photos; it was a roller coaster of emotions from giggles and embarrassment to sadness and sometimes regret.  Then feelings of triumph crept in, bringing with it happiness and resolved contentment…

It’s funny – those moments when you examine your life, look at photos of a younger you and realize:

  • how much you have grown
  • a few things you could change about yourself
  • your probable true hair color.

You realize how innocent you once were as a baby and in those single digit years.  Not in a ‘free from incrimination’ way but an unknowing, wide-eyed state.

And then you travel through Junior High to High School pictures and into your early twenties.

You find compassion for yourself.  You realize how well-meaning you were and how hard you tried even though life was sometimes confusing.

And although those years were filled with uncertainty, the good times were really good and quite defining, weren’t they?

You wouldn’t change a thing!

Or would you?

If you went back there’s no guarantee you’d make different choices.  Probable, yes, but if so, your character today might be slightly altered.

For better or worse?  There’s no knowing.  (What does ‘better’ and ‘worse’ mean anyway?)  You’d be you either way.  Simply you. 🙂

So you sit with yourself after going through time in photos and bits of story logged in your body & soul.

You sit and you say to yourself, “I am fabulous.”

Not in the exact same physical form, not as starry-eyed, but more beautiful.  More confident.

Are you scared?  Sometimes.  Clueless?  Sure!

But somehow it’s more comfortable now.  There’s something magical about not knowing.

A bit of wonderment left in life.

May we look back with compassion, cherish our inner, younger selves and feel good about the roads we’ve traveled and who we are today.

It takes a bit of work, a bit of delving inward but it’s worth it because “wherever you go, there you are!” Might as well be happy with who you are too.

How often do you look back at old photos?  It had been a long time for me until this trip.  It certainly does lend a little perspective!




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4 comments on “Looking Back

  1. Makenzie
    November 22, 2014 at 6:44 pm

    Yes, family and friends – it would be a lonely world without them! Love to you ladies 🙂

  2. Mimi
    November 22, 2014 at 8:47 pm

    I love seeing old pics of you… youre so cute!

  3. Jaymee
    November 22, 2014 at 8:53 pm

    I love looking through old photos. It makes me appreciate my past and to hold on to my future. I remember the younger years as being some of the best. We were all friends and innocent. Yes, life can be confusing, but with great family and friends by our sides we will persevere.

  4. Christine Hodges
    November 22, 2014 at 9:33 pm

    I have a tear in my eye! I did the same with a year (over 1600+) photos of my sons first year. Wow. This is written beautifully! Love love love… Flood of emotions )

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